Tumultuous Thoughts: Between Desperation and Ambition

by Serena Wu on October 1, 2009

My sister had always wanted a dog, but my dad strictly enforced a “no pets” rule because I once had a kitten, we were all allergic, we gave the kitten away, and I cried myself to sleep for days. But my sister was a smart kid and scooped a cup of tiny brine shrimp from the Bay to bring home as pets. The shrimp died, so she asked for hermit crabs, and the “not pets” rule quickly became a “no furry pets” rule. The hermit crabs eventually died and she wanted something more significant for a pet, so we went to PETCO to look at reptiles when my dad gave in and decided that a hamster was at least friendlier than a snake. With a hamster in the house, the “no furry pets” rule was soon abolished, so my mom brought home two cockatiels (which technically have feathers, not fur). Eventually, the hamster and one of the cockatiels died, so my sister boldly asked for a dog in a very convincing manner. At age twelve, she wrote a detailed persuasive letter to my dad…and got a puppy.

My parents have loosely enforced a “no art school” rule on me. Architecture school was pushing the limits.


Dear Mom and Dad,

After just graduating from college a year early and experiencing the recession via unsuccessful rounds of job applications, I’ve decided…I need to go back to school. I am up against art school students and graduate students who have industrial design-specific portfolios and school connections—I stand no chance.

If I work at an unrelated company, it would be even more difficult for me to nudge my way back into the field I’m interested in once I’m off tangent and building experiences in another field. Time is also of the essence, since I would like to go back to graduate school for product design (and graduate) before I get married ideally before I’m thirty—not that I have anyone to marry in mind.

I understand the desire for me to go to a B-school rather than a D-school, but Harvard says the MFA is the new MBA and BusinessWeek has many convincing articles on why I should go to a D-school after all. BusinessWeek has also compiled a list of the top 60 D-schools in the world that incorporate business and design strategies and have partnerships with major firms. Because my first-choice graduate program and dream company are both in the Bay Area, networking within the community of design students, professors, and companies is really not a bad idea, and I am willing to live at home and commute this time.

With a geographic filter and a focus on design (not business), I’m limited to the following options from the list:

  • California College of the Arts
  • San Jose State University, School of Art & Design
  • Stanford University, Hasso Plattner Institute of Design, and the Product Design Engineering Program

Although San Jose State is the most cost-effective option and offers a Bachelor of Science in Product Design, it is a 4.5-year program, which is neither time-effective nor ideal. Going to a CSU after just graduating from the top UC is also a little hard on the ego (plus you both hated going to San Jose State!), so I’m crossing this option off the list (although I might consider it as a backup if all else fails).

The Joint Product Design Program at Stanford is my first choice graduate program, but it is extremely competitive and requires students to have at least one year of life experience after the Bachelor’s before applying (the average is four years). “The school has historically been the most selective program at the already highly selective Stanford…approximately 4% of applicants were offered admission.” Keep in mind that if half are doing the MSE, an MFA candidate’s chances are even smaller. I need a major edge…like two bachelor degrees, excellent letters of rec, and major experiences and connections on top of a spectacularly spankin’ portfolio. (For comparison’s sake, Harvard Law’s acceptance rate is 11.4% whereas Wharton’s is 9.8%.)

Of course, this leaves me with California College of the Arts in the meantime, which is my ideal choice for many reasons.

With school projects, I’ll be able to build a product design portfolio and then look for a desired job when the economy is much better. If I can eventually work at IDEO (my ultimate dream company), I might not even consider grad school anymore. So, what do you think?

I just overcame a short-lived quarter life crisis, please don’t send me back to the ledge. We should also break up expectations—I’m making compromises.

  • JIMMYNGUYEN110
    I was wondering, you want to get high?
  • Thanks for sharing your story. You had the misfortune of hitting the job market at the worst possible time and unfortunately you are not alone with these 'tumultuous' thoughts.
  • amom
    So, work out a plan/job to feed your soul without starving yourself. Such like get license for job then, do whatever you want.
  • Name
    I've been through total of six years of art/design college/ school. It cost about that much money that I made in art/design field for 10 years(after tax and expense). So I went back school again to face the subjects that I don't like and learn something that I always try to avoid. I work on the job that I don't like to make a living for family and also in spare time to work on the job that I love to feed my soul.
  • Serena, your foresight and self-knowledge are impressive. Keep your eyes on the prize! It scares me that I have to compete with people like you for the same positions in work and school.
  • Ben
    I think this is a great idea! :)
  • NiDeWangZi
    Perhaps you did. So you don't think if you kept applying for a year all around the U.S. you wouldn't have gotten a job somewhere? x.x
  • jacobsknabb
    +1!
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